Tuesday, June 29, 2004
I've been feeling a little strange lately. Not quite sure what it is, but I find myself somehow in a not-completely foreign sort of situation where I am restless and uneasy, and for no good reason, really. Everything -- every aspect of my life -- is in a very level, absolutely horizontal equanimity, I am neither ecstatic nor depressed, neither completely content nor completely unhappy. I am in this place where I'm not quite sure how I'm doing in Capoeira; work has been maniacal but not totally out-of-control; I have a weeklong vacation coming up where I could still go to the Gingarte Batizado at the last minute thanks to some hoarded frequent flier miles; but at the same time the solid comforts (and duties) of home clamour loudly and incessantly. I feel at a stasis, as if I'm suspended in some kind of life-aspic, waiting for something ... or someone ... to break through all that clear, suffocating goo and set me free. I was planning on going to the Café this Friday to spend the whole day in workshops, but I don't think anyone else from the crew will be there. If anything people -- and Mestre -- will get there towards the evening, and most certainly the next day during the Batizado: a given. But as to Friday... what to do, what to do?
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